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Grr… my computer went dead (aysshhh!) Anyway, I was suppose to post this one a week ago when I was feeling really really down — like I was having some sort of a quarter-life crisis. But hey, I feel good now =)

The past few days have been very unhealthy for me — emotionally, physically and spiritually. I was a wreck; a miserable soul who could snap (loose screws) at any moment. Seriously, I was afraid I’d just snap like that *thet snapping her fingers*

It was all too much. Thanks to Gela, my dear friend who keeps me sane amidst this chaotic phase and her own craziness; I survive… Aza!

I was too disheartened and stressed about work that all I had were evil thoughts about the nasty ogre (you know whom I referring to) and this dark, cold, psyche-battering place called ‘hell’. Need I say more? Nah.

Anyway, a week has passed and I feel like I already came to my senses. After days of crying (I am really such a tear-jerker), staring at blank spaces for what seemed like eternity, I am back to my old self- perky, bubbly, happy.

But I still hate every person who’s making my life miserable. I’ll get back at you.

I swear I could curse here all I want but my internet connection wouldn’t improve one bit. I’ve been infront of the monitor the moment I woke up because of that letcheng business plan that I have to submit to the ogre. I don’t want to give it on Monday; I want it done ASAP. kung pwede nga lang isampal sa ngala-ngala niya, ginawa ko na…. (ayshhhh…)

Anyway, I don’t want to take things the negative way but I feel that worse feeling of ‘losing’ someone again. Well I hope, it’s just me who’s pathetically thinking about it; I hope it’s just another paranoia from my end. I mean, the feeling is too familiar to miss – it’s like a gush of wind – you could never go wrong; it could totally mess up your hair (whew.. ang labo ng metaphor ko). Okay, now… I don’t want to say anything more… Mum’s the word.

Then, there’s this someone whom I thought I already forgotten. My, my , my… was I really wrong. It’s as if that void wasn’t there at all. It’s like we’re on that same time, the exact same moment. Nothing’s changed. And I’m surprising myself a lot — why do I love the feeling?

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It’s really hot!!! Summer na!!! Boracay! Galera! Camiguin! Coron! Anilao! Matabungkay! Hinulugang-taktak! WHERE ARE YOU?!?!?! Ahahahaha… I was just kidding about the last two…

Our office is planning a summer outing and I was the one tasked to organized everything. Funny thing is that when somebody asks me excitedly where we are going, me and my evil counterpart, Ladyholden, enjoys deflating their high hopes by replying “Matabungkay o kaya Hinulugang Taktak” hihihi. But seriously, I’m goign for Galera… Sana (keeping both my fingers crossed) ‘coz it’s the closest thing to Boracay (which I’m never gonnna see until May) and I suspect that our budget could only afford. Even doubt about it.

Anyway, the damn PDF AQ File that I’ve been downloading the last two hours hasn’t moved one bit. I give up. Siyet.

It’s my birthdaaaaayyyyy!!!

Mom says I was born at exactly 12:45 am…

I dunno but I really am extremely happy whenever this day approaches. Probably, I’ve never been thankful that I am here… I have a pretty normal and decent life and I am with the people whom I cherish the most.

And for this… I could never thank God enough.

My family was kind’a excited too… we celebrated a day earlier. I spent half my day in 168 Mall though, hoping to buy some good finds. On the way there, I came across these street children who were happily wallowing in the big fountain by the Binondo Plaza. They were shouting “Ate, ate, picture naman jan!” And so with my ever-reliable Samsung Camera-phone, I froze that wonderful scene in time.

Hmm… 25 years is really not that bad… I would say I’ve done a lot of good things already that could win me a de luxe reservation at the book of life up there (hehe). I am still living with my parents but I have a pretty good pay and a job that I love. (Although you know for a fact that I wouldn’t consider whom or where I really work for a blessing). And yes, by the way, I am still single. How many more years should I endure before I get hitched again (not that I am too eager to be). I just miss the feeling… nyahaha!

I have a lot of wishes. And first on my list is WORLDPEACE. Seriously, not trying to be Ms. America (or Philippines) at all… but hey, we needed that badly.

Nope… I am not talking about my period… So there’s no fear of me being pregnant or whatsoever (ano yun, immaculate conception? hahaha!)

Anyway, the 3rd issue of Asian Quality is sooooo delayed. Probably it’s my fault… I basked too much on procrastination that this is what I’m getting now. Hmmm.. probably my current ‘confusion’ about my ‘work’ is also adding up to this.

I am (or was?) suppose to transfer to this newswire company but it hasn’t (didn’t?) materialized yet. The girl I am talking to in the company told me she’s giving me a call back this week. But I had doubts about it. Not because they wouldn’t give me the call back but because I feel not too secure in the company. They couldn’t answer me when I asked about the benefits that I’ll be entitled to. All I know is that I will be one of the editors who will handle monthly newsletters, interview expats, write tons of copies and nothing more.

I had a good talk with Chin-Chin last Saturday (while we were pigging out at Kitchen in Greenbelt). It wasn’t that she tried to convince me to stay but she actually laid out the pros and cons. And I actually did a lot of thinking myself last Friday. As for the ‘bitching’ of the ogre, I guess Chin tried to do something about it, telling him how inappropriate it is. In fairness, the ogre wasn’t too monstrous during our last Business Unit Heads Meeting. He was actually… in fact… smiling. Yay! The visual is still scary!

Anyway, I’m missing the whole point of this blog. I am truly concern about AQ. I’ve had enough of pressures but hell, do I have a choice? Whether I transfer or not, WORK ITSELF IS PRESSURE. And people work to survive, to live. It’s a vicious cycle nobody can stop. Bottomline is I have vowed (once again) to focus on AQ (not the person. the person has long been dead. kidding!) and make my stay here worth it. I once told myself that I will only leave this company when my next step is really really big like going abroad. But I am not saying that I’ll be here until I can bear no more. Once I see that sparkling light of opportunity, I’ll be all for it. Adios hell on earth.


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